I can’t help but think Angel Christi made them sit beside me this morning. Each time I glanced out the window, I wondered if our Angel daughters were just outside on the clouds, high fiving that they got us together! Immediately sharing a special bond, we talked and cried the remainder of the flight. She’s now majoring in pre-med and shared with me that she just wrote a paper about neuroblastoma. I was glad that she said she remembered her sister and the hospital. The daughter with her today was seven years old at the time (just like Shayla was). Small world! Not only that, but what I had just told Shayne - about babies dying within months of diagnosis was her horror story! She told me that she had a daughter – Macy and that Macy died of neuroblastoma on September 17th 1994. The look on her face said it all before she even responded. Well, you guessed it – it came up and I finally said my daughter died from neuroblastoma on September 19th. Seven months after Christi’s death, I’m still living in “that didn’t really happen” mode to get me through each day. I was just hoping they didn’t ask if I had children because I no longer know what to say – am I the mother of one or two? And if I admit two then I have to explain and it’s just sooooooo hard. Well, wouldn’t you know, they boarded the plane and sat beside me. Some of these little babies are diagnosed and dead within months.'

Talking to Shayne on the phone I said through my tears trying to comfort myself, 'At least we had four years with her knowing it was only a matter of time. I watched the two of them interact and was saddened that I'd never be able to share that special time with Christi. Going to airports is always hard for me now because Christi and I traveled so much together throughout her years of treatment, the memories are always fresh and painful. As I boarded my plane this morning looking forward to meeting “The Awesome and Amazing Erin’s” mom in Houston today, I noticed an attractive mom with her daughter – who looked to be a college student.

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